cutting boards and hanging hooks

This whole sleep thing is foreign to me.

Exchanging facts about impacts.

and it seemed weird that two were close at the same time. The odds must be off the charts.

There's no proper system.

Watched Total Recall again for the first time in a while. That film still holds up. Even though a lot of the clothes and hair scream early 90's, most of the effects and the action are better than the majority of action/sci-fi films being made now. Also, the pacing is pretty tight and there's not a lot of bullshit.



Rained today. That was nice. It felt for a moment that I was in a different time. Not the past or future, but certainly not the present. The weather just made me feel like this morning was out of sequence and I was ok with that. It was nice.

Picked up the pace on reading. Finished On Writing by Stephen King which I found really interesting and informative. I don't write novels or stories, but it pointed out some things that I will keep an eye out while reading. Also came across a new short Chuck Palahniuk story called Phoenix which I really enjoyed. I liked it more than his past few books. I am looking forward to reading the re-release of Invisible Monsters.

Been listening to the same 3 CDs for the past week or so and really am enjoying them. A variety of artists and a variety of feelings.

I'm sitting here and Ampersand is literally right behind my head conked out and I can hear her breathing. It's pretty much the cutest thing ever. She sounds so peaceful. I wonder if she's dreaming at the moment. I bet she is and it consists of scratching the shit out of me...but lovingly so.

I feel like I should get rid of some things in my room. I feel like they just sit here unused, but I don't know what I would fill the space up with. Maybe nothing. Maybe I don't really care. I think I should build a tower for Ampersand because she would dig it. Then she could sleep up in the tower and dream her violent dreams. I wish I would remember my dreams more. The colors from my dreams, the people. It would be nice if that would happen more often. I like the lack of continuity in dreams, especially when

Just a whitewash

Just finished this...



Really enjoyed it. Just a great story of these guys starting out as kids and growing as human beings, not to mention groundbreaking athletes. Check it out.



Now falling asleep to Zodiac with David Fincher commentary. He has a calming voice and a lot to say so the sound of the actual film don't come in and out of the commentary. It's all Fincher talking about this and that, but it's an interesting "this" and "that". It's like an audible benadryl.

Find a Thread to Pull And We Can Watch It Unravel

It's 4:05am and I can not sleep for the life of me. I've been rolling around as if I was in the dryer trying to find those positions of comfort. I found some cold spots on my pillow, but no real comfort. I'm sure it's not helping that Ampersand's new favorite thing is sleeping on the side of my head or as close as possible which includes laying on my shoulder with her feet firmly planted for warmth (?) on my neck. Went to listen to music to lull me to sleep but was greeted with a dead iPod. When I plugged it in, my computer told me I had to restore it before continuing, which means everything will get wiped clean. This happened not too long ago, so there wasn't too much on there, but still....very annoying.

I wish my mind would be like a dead iPod so I could just fall asleep, then wake up and reload whatever was previously there. Most of it anyway. Leave some stuff in the gutter. Guess I will try and sleep again, but I just don't see it happening anytime soon.


Oh and I have a fist in my throat.

So then there's this...

Not sure if I mentioned it in a previous blog or not, but I started (in late December) to capture a second of video footage every day for a year. I backed an app on kickstarter and it can now be purchased. It's called "1 Second Everyday". It's fun and it will hopefully remind me of moments through the year that are worth remembering. I enjoy it. I've already forgotten twice, so I hope that doesn't happen again. I'll share it after a month maybe...well I guess that would be tomorrow. Maybe at the end of this month, I'll post it.

I like making lists.

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Movies watched so far in 2013: 

The Grey

Raising Cain

Zero Dark Thirty

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Bully

Beasts of the Southern Wild

Searching for Sugar Man 

The Sound of My Voice

Dredd 

Hunger

Elite Squad 2

Hard Ticket to Hawaii

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows Part 1

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows Part 2

50 films I've never seen that I want to watch this year (That are already out...)

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1.      West of Memphis

2.      Wreck-it Ralph

3.      The Skin I Live in

4.      The Last Circus

5.      C.H.U.D.

6.      The Boy With a Bike

7.      I Am Love

8.     Dead Snow

9.     John Dies At the End

10.  Sophie Scholl

11.  Tie Me Up, Tie Me Down

12.  Sin Nombre

13.  A Separation

14.  Midnight in Paris

15.  Paranorman

16.  Oslo, August 31^st

17.  Nobody Knows

18.  I Declare War

19.  Dark Horse

20.  Jules and Jim

21.  In the Mood For Love

22.  Lust, Caution

23.  My Best Friend

24.  Law of Desire

25.  Grave of the Fireflies

26.  Dark Crystal

27.  Rust and Bone

28.  The Loneliest Planet

29.  In Darkness

30.  Persona

31.  Room 237

32.  Tokyo

33.  From Beyond

34.  Les Diaboliques

35.  Withnail and I

36.  Dinner with Andre

37.  Mondo Cane

38.  Sunset Limited

39.  Look at Me

40.  Liquid Sky

41.  Z

42.  Reds

43.  Arbitrage

44.  Che

45.  Beginners

46.  The Sessions

47.  How To Survive a Plague

48.  Take This Waltz

49.  The Deep Blue Sea

50.  The Man With the Iron Fists

This is what boredom does I guess. Oh, and I plan to read more. Quicksand is tomorrow. This makes me happy. Not feeling too much of that these days. Always looking for more music. Recommendations? Leave a comment.

We're the neglected, the never resurrected, agonies of the few...

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 ...We're the once kissed, unmissed and always refused.

Made it to another year. A lot has changed since this time last year and makes me wonder how much will change between this time next year. Kind of wish I could fast forward till then.  It’s cold out. It will probably rain shortly. I’m ok with that, but I wish I didn’t have to go anywhere. I feel like I need a day to clear my head. It feels overly crowded…like there’s not enough room for me.

Going to see Quicksand in a little over two weeks. First show in a little bit. Should be fun, especially since they were broken up for a long while.

I tried watching Lincoln the other day and I didn’t get a chance to finish it. I will, and it seems like it will be a good movie, but it just felt like I was watching Abraham Lincoln working with actors. There is an obvious gap in acting that takes me away from the film, which makes it hard for me to pay attention for some reason. Maybe it was the time I watched it or whatever, but I suppose I should finish it and then make any sort of decision. 

I guess if I had to choose at this moment my top ten for the year would be (in no particular order): Django Unchained, Life of Pi, Zero Dark Thirty (Jessica Chastain kills it), Cabin in the Woods, The Grey, Amour, Moonrise Kingdom, Holy Motors, Looper, and The Raid: Redemption. I haven’t seen Lincoln (all of it anyway) or The Hobbit (that will change by next week I’m sure) or a handful of others I wanted to check out so…there’s that.

So if you get anything from this worthless internet mumbo jumbo, let it be movie recommendations. Amour especially.

Don't feel sorry for yourself. Only assholes do that.

It’s 3 a.m. and I’m sick. I haven’t been able to sleep well for about at least a month now. I think it’s time I invest in a bed. That’s either beside point or exactly the point. I’m usually comfortable, but my thoughts are unable to calm themselves.

This year is rapidly coming to an end. I think a good theme for this year for me is “people telling the truth < people lying”. That’s not to say that I prefer people lying, but that the number of people telling the truth is less than the number of people full of shit. This theme comfortably encompasses this year and possibly even more, but who’s to say, it’s just fitting. On so many fronts, this holds true for almost every facet of my everyday life. Stepping back and actually thinking about it kind of surprises me.

My eyes are tired. I’ll edit this later and add more…or maybe that’s a lie and I just want to fit in.

…but I’ll probably add more tomorrow night.

 

Probably not though.